So since my last update was superduper depressing, i thought i'd give some encouragement...
So God never told me it'd be easy. He didn't promise me a happy jolly life filled with magical shiny things. He didn't say i'll be filled with complete satisfaction every second but he also didn't say that i was going to be alone. It's the road less taken.
He DID promise me that He'll take care of me. That as long as i trust Him, i will be okay.
So yes, i'll have a day or two (or more) where i'm super sad, discouraged, and even angry at this world/people...but i always somehow am taken back to the cross.
That God gave it all FOR US and that because we live in this fallen state, we are going to have troubles, seasons of dryness, and just straight up struggles. But while all that happens, our God, our Father, our amazing Savior...is watching over us. Planning the next move, making sure that we are being taken care of. Why? Because He LOVES us. ^^
Makes me super happy thinking about how great our God is, and how no matter what i have, what i don't have, how sad or how happy i am...He's right there cheering me on, picking me up, and just watching out for me.
And that is the same for each of you guys reading this as well.
Trust me, it isn't easy. But life is a heck of a lot better with God on your side, loving you, drowning you in His grace. It truly has been an amazing past few months and i only hope to grow deeper.
Hope you guys are doing well and still fighting this amazing fight. Fight with me, let's pray, let's grow deeper, and just love like He loves. xx
Do Everything In Love, Always~
SK
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Sunday, May 11, 2014
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Broken & Damaged Goods
This year so far has been a tremendous blessing for me. I've heard so many stories and emotionally connected with so many souls. It's truly been a privilege to see where many of you come from -- especially the amount of "baggage" you carry. I honestly weep when i think about every single one of you guys who have shared bits and pieces with me. I only pray and hope for God to continue providing hope, restoration, reconciliation, and love.
While having the honor of hearing these personal stories, i've also been able to share bits of mine. I noticed i usually start sharing once i get the idea that the person see's me as "holy" or a "saint."
A lot of time, i've been called so "pure" and "innocent" -- At first i laugh it off because it's hilarious and totally false. But i found myself feeling sad afterwards. Not because i felt judged but because most of the time, i think they just might think i'm "better" than them.
So when i realized that there is even a slight possibility that they may have felt like i was better than them, it broke my heart. At that moment, i just wanted to rewind to the second they told me i'm "pure" a "saint" etc - and just tell them that i'm not better than they are. I am in absolute brokenness in God's eyes. Whether you compare me to the greatest pastor or a heroin addict on the streets - God see's me just as He sees you..as His daughter...same ole broken soul. Needing love, grace, and His mercy.
We are all broken & damaged goods. We tend to forget that when we're on a spiritual high or when we're on a complete spiritual dry season...and we compare ourselves to those who are just so good in their walk or judge those who aren't so good.
So for those who might think that they're not on the same level as some people that are really awesome in their walks with God and just so "holy" -- as great as they are, we all go through the same struggles and pains. We all have our own brokenness and baggage. But note this: God loves us, no matter what. He doesn't say come perfect! (i know i've mentioned this in another post) He says come now. With nothing - because really..what can we possibly give to God, that'll be of any use? Just ourselves ! A pastor head of thousands of people and a person that parties every weekend/maybeeveneveryday.. LOL can come to God and still have nothing to offer, but themselves and their love to just serve our amazing gracious God.
Its seriously so simple! I mean, granted depending on how you feel about our Heavenly Father right now, i don't blame you if you don't see what i'm sayin' ...but whenever you're ready, i promise you...He'll do great things in your life. Because the thing is, He already is! You may not notice, but He's slowly molding you, even when you're far from Him. whyyyy?! Because He loves us. Just as we are.
So..i don't really know where i'm going with this anymore but...i'm really not a "saint" or "innocent" or "pure." (lol) - i am just as you are. living in sin, taking it day by day.
& most importantly, we are all equally loved by the amazing God upstairs~ so whenever you're ready to just say hi to Him in prayer or even just talk to Him real casuallyyy..do it!
Also, i'd love to even chat and hear your baggage! I have a lot of baggage to share as well to make you feel better..LOL :) And prayer requests will always be taken~ so please don't ever hesitate!
SIDENOTE: http://www.iftimestoodstill.org/ -- Awesome site made by the talent Kelly GH Kim. Click it, explore it, and tell us...#IfTimeStoodStill, what would ya do?
Do Everything In Love, Always~
SK
While having the honor of hearing these personal stories, i've also been able to share bits of mine. I noticed i usually start sharing once i get the idea that the person see's me as "holy" or a "saint."
A lot of time, i've been called so "pure" and "innocent" -- At first i laugh it off because it's hilarious and totally false. But i found myself feeling sad afterwards. Not because i felt judged but because most of the time, i think they just might think i'm "better" than them.
If you've been reading my blogs/talking to me...i've been wrecked by God in the fact that i need to come back to earth, get off my mighty horse, and realize that we're all God's children (full of sin). Don't get me wrong - i wasn't super self-righteous or anything.. But i found my sub-conscious judging indirectly at people that didn't dress like me, acted like me, looked "normal", etc.
So when i realized that there is even a slight possibility that they may have felt like i was better than them, it broke my heart. At that moment, i just wanted to rewind to the second they told me i'm "pure" a "saint" etc - and just tell them that i'm not better than they are. I am in absolute brokenness in God's eyes. Whether you compare me to the greatest pastor or a heroin addict on the streets - God see's me just as He sees you..as His daughter...same ole broken soul. Needing love, grace, and His mercy.
We are all broken & damaged goods. We tend to forget that when we're on a spiritual high or when we're on a complete spiritual dry season...and we compare ourselves to those who are just so good in their walk or judge those who aren't so good.
So for those who might think that they're not on the same level as some people that are really awesome in their walks with God and just so "holy" -- as great as they are, we all go through the same struggles and pains. We all have our own brokenness and baggage. But note this: God loves us, no matter what. He doesn't say come perfect! (i know i've mentioned this in another post) He says come now. With nothing - because really..what can we possibly give to God, that'll be of any use? Just ourselves ! A pastor head of thousands of people and a person that parties every weekend/maybeeveneveryday.. LOL can come to God and still have nothing to offer, but themselves and their love to just serve our amazing gracious God.
"Come to me, all who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest." Matthew 11: 28
Its seriously so simple! I mean, granted depending on how you feel about our Heavenly Father right now, i don't blame you if you don't see what i'm sayin' ...but whenever you're ready, i promise you...He'll do great things in your life. Because the thing is, He already is! You may not notice, but He's slowly molding you, even when you're far from Him. whyyyy?! Because He loves us. Just as we are.
So..i don't really know where i'm going with this anymore but...i'm really not a "saint" or "innocent" or "pure." (lol) - i am just as you are. living in sin, taking it day by day.
& most importantly, we are all equally loved by the amazing God upstairs~ so whenever you're ready to just say hi to Him in prayer or even just talk to Him real casuallyyy..do it!
Also, i'd love to even chat and hear your baggage! I have a lot of baggage to share as well to make you feel better..LOL :) And prayer requests will always be taken~ so please don't ever hesitate!
SIDENOTE: http://www.iftimestoodstill.org/ -- Awesome site made by the talent Kelly GH Kim. Click it, explore it, and tell us...#IfTimeStoodStill, what would ya do?
Do Everything In Love, Always~
SK
Saturday, February 22, 2014
B L E S S E D
It literally brings me to tears when i think about all the amazing support i've received not just recently, but my whole life. I think sometimes my emotions get the best of me and i have moments where i think no one cares...(whichithinkwe'reallguiltyof) BUT~ When i really think about it, God has given me such amazing beautiful people that endlessly support and encourage me. What have i done to deserve any of this?!?!! You people, you beautiful people..are amazing.
I guess this is kind of a dedication/thanks/shoutout~
NEWSONGfam: You guys have been 100% supportive of every move every action i've done since..ever. There are so many of you guys that have just always gave me love and support, even through my crazy bi-polar stages. I love you all so much and i appreciate all you've done. Especially for those i've kept in contact with...mad love for you guys. I pray for you guys daily and am hopeful for the plans God has in store for you. I'm always praying for ALL you guys and i know God has huge huge plans for newsong EM. I not only believe it..i know it.
MABiddies: You know who you are~ All my friends back at home. My girls, my dudes, basically my fam. I love you guys. We've been through a lot together and i hope that i can still continue to be there for you guys even when i'm far away. Always feel free to reach out to me, i'm no stranger~ I'll be glad to drop anything and everything just to hear you rant/talk/whatever. Thank you for all the words of encouragements, you don't know how much the littlest things mean to me. I see what God is doing in each other your lives and i'm so excited to see it just flourish and grow exponentially in the next few years. And especially to those who have been my spiritual encouragement since 2010..thankyou. I don't know what else to say but that. God has truly blessed me with you guys and all of you guys are in my life for a reason~ I hope that we can continue to bless each other and help each other grow in His love and in His kingdom.
UNIQLOfam: This really is dedicated to Kelly..(hi) LOL You've been so supportive of me since day 1. Ever since i started coming into your office bothering you and hannah, you both have been amazing! Thank you for all the support, love, and tough love! I seriously am so blessed to have met such a wonderful boss that took care of me more than just an employee. YOU are the bomb.com <3 I promise i will watch that day off movie thing one day..for you. haha! :) And HANNAH~ I love you, you crazy you! haha! I appreciate all the phone calls, the updates, and endless support! You've been such a great friend and i love you for all you are. And all the other awesome people i've met, thank you for keeping in touch, always sending me love. I'm hoping and praying for the best for all of you guys! Hope you continue to grow in the company and really show em what you got ;) <3
fAbuLouSsistas: From my bigs to my pledge sisters, to all my other sisters..thank you for all the support. For those who read this/dont~ Im truly blessed to have met such a great group of girls. Without you guys, i wouldn't have been here today. I hope i can be supportive of you guys from afar and never lose touch! Thank you for ALL the love you've given me since the day i walked into TH34. (orwasit36?) LOL~ I won't forget freshman year spring 12. Alpha Alphas<3
FBstalkers: HA jk...but really, to those people i've kept in touch through fb, social media, or even just texting, i love y'all. Reading my blog, liking my posts, and just anything encourages me to see that people are reading what i'm sharing and hopefully spreading the Gospel little by little. Don't be afraid to ever ask for prayer requests or anything~ i'm always open to hear from anyone!
KIMfam: oh 엄마...I hesitated putting this for you since you'll ever read it..but i want the world to hear how amazing you are. You are literally my number 1 everything. You're my best friend, my therapist, my prayer warrior, my financial support, my mother. Thank you for everything you've done the past 21 years..i don't know how you dealt with me! You are always so supportive in every action everything i do~ although i may seem crazy sometimes, you just find it in your heart to believe everything i do and say..and just pray for me constantly. I truly believe you are heaven sent by God and you are my mom for a reason. We may not have the best family situation, but having you and 오빠 in my life is all i need. And onto my brother..my awesome brother~ thank you for everything you've done for me since the day we started getting closer :') You're seriously the best brother i could ever ask for. Thanks for all the tough love and support you've given me. You're the main reason i'm here in Illinois so cheers for a new life together!!! Kim fam will do good in the midwest, i feel it~ God has great plans for you, even if you feel hesitant at times and think He's not there. He's been here always rooting for you~ hwaiting! <3 love you...and to my crazy cousin Ann<3 hehe i don't know if you read this..but HAYYY~ i miss you! I know we just started to keep in touch this past year..and i wish we could have done it sooner. All those years ive missed out on ! You would have been an amazing support during my highschool years..dammit. LOL. But anyways thank you for always being such a great 언니<3 You're always spoiling me and loving me~ thank you so much for bringing back the meaning of what "blood" means. You're awesome love yaaaa and rollie.. <3
KIMfam: oh 엄마...I hesitated putting this for you since you'll ever read it..but i want the world to hear how amazing you are. You are literally my number 1 everything. You're my best friend, my therapist, my prayer warrior, my financial support, my mother. Thank you for everything you've done the past 21 years..i don't know how you dealt with me! You are always so supportive in every action everything i do~ although i may seem crazy sometimes, you just find it in your heart to believe everything i do and say..and just pray for me constantly. I truly believe you are heaven sent by God and you are my mom for a reason. We may not have the best family situation, but having you and 오빠 in my life is all i need. And onto my brother..my awesome brother~ thank you for everything you've done for me since the day we started getting closer :') You're seriously the best brother i could ever ask for. Thanks for all the tough love and support you've given me. You're the main reason i'm here in Illinois so cheers for a new life together!!! Kim fam will do good in the midwest, i feel it~ God has great plans for you, even if you feel hesitant at times and think He's not there. He's been here always rooting for you~ hwaiting! <3 love you...and to my crazy cousin Ann<3 hehe i don't know if you read this..but HAYYY~ i miss you! I know we just started to keep in touch this past year..and i wish we could have done it sooner. All those years ive missed out on ! You would have been an amazing support during my highschool years..dammit. LOL. But anyways thank you for always being such a great 언니<3 You're always spoiling me and loving me~ thank you so much for bringing back the meaning of what "blood" means. You're awesome love yaaaa and rollie.. <3
all in all..mad love for all you guys. I'm here today because of most of you guys and i can't thank you guys enough. I truly truly am so blessed i can't evenoifjdiofgjdsklfjdsiofds explain. hehe.
have a lovely weekend y'all and God bless. <3
Do Everything In Love, Always~
SK
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